And in truth? I suppose there is no harm in saying it, he knows how I feel. I find your emperor's practices repulsive, how Canaan House happened, how cavaliers are treated as expendable, the propaganda from birth and obligatory devotion.
It is wrong, that is why I care. In this case I have learned what I wish. It is good to know Harrow understood as much.
[ah, this is probably where he should stop, but on he goes.]
I do not doubt your devotion is real, what I doubt is how much choice you truly had in it and how safe it would have been for you to reject it.
But I am an outsider, so my word is largely that of a very diminished perspective, that I will admit. I do not think you are stupid, by the way. We are all the products of our culture and upbringing one way or another.
you really want to know? fine i died becoming a cavalier and i would have died otherwise but its more than being some stupid furnace i swore to protect her no matter what isnt there anything youd protect no matter what
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And in truth? I suppose there is no harm in saying it, he knows how I feel. I find your emperor's practices repulsive, how Canaan House happened, how cavaliers are treated as expendable, the propaganda from birth and obligatory devotion.
It is wrong, that is why I care. In this case I have learned what I wish. It is good to know Harrow understood as much.
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But that wouldn't make Viktor understand, and would just open up a series of even worse questions.
There's just one point she wants to make sure he gets: ]
my devotion was never obligatory
i wasnt tricked
news flash im not as stupid as i look
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I do not doubt your devotion is real, what I doubt is how much choice you truly had in it and how safe it would have been for you to reject it.
But I am an outsider, so my word is largely that of a very diminished perspective, that I will admit. I do not think you are stupid, by the way. We are all the products of our culture and upbringing one way or another.
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you really want to know?
fine
i died becoming a cavalier and i would have died otherwise
but its more than being some stupid furnace
i swore to protect her no matter what
isnt there anything youd protect no matter what
[ or anyone? but that's a bit personal. ]
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I suppose I should simply be upfront. I find your 'Emperor's' methods and ideas disdainful, more so the glorifying of this process.
Hm, perhaps calling it furnaces is unkind, ultimately. My apologies there.