[Paul will come to regret not stopping to conceal this conversation some time in the future, but in the instant of Shouto's accusation he is not afflicted with much concern for anything that comes after it. His eye snaps open with a flash of eerie blue light in its green iris, his jaw tightening with an emotion indefinable even to him.]
A coward?
[He drops his hand. It curls into a fist as its twin does, both hidden out of view of his Omni at his sides.]
I'm worse than a coward. I'm a traitor. Why should I ask him to bear that?
[If Paul was a better disciplined person, he'd be able to keep the crack out of his voice even now, in the extremity of loss. He'd be as cold as Shouto is, but without the fury. He'd accept his fate with the stoicism of a fated monster.
But he can't stop thinking of Izuku, blood-splattered, wounded in body and soul. He can't stop wanting to have wiped the tears from his face and taken him into his arms, traitor or not. He can't stop wanting, and this is always his weakness.]
He doesn't want to see me. Should I force him to? Is that what you're asking me to do?
[ There's a downside to the coldness. It makes him numb to everything, friend and foe alike, and Paul lies precariously on the latter end of the spectrum. ]
If he doesn't want to see you, then you have your answer.
[ Him, Paul wants to say, hanging on the tip of his treacherous tongue, but how can he say that in light of his actions? He has not behaved as though that was true, not really - not the way he should have. ]
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A coward?
[He drops his hand. It curls into a fist as its twin does, both hidden out of view of his Omni at his sides.]
I'm worse than a coward. I'm a traitor. Why should I ask him to bear that?
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You tell him what you did.
How you betrayed him, and take what he gives you.
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[If Paul was a better disciplined person, he'd be able to keep the crack out of his voice even now, in the extremity of loss. He'd be as cold as Shouto is, but without the fury. He'd accept his fate with the stoicism of a fated monster.
But he can't stop thinking of Izuku, blood-splattered, wounded in body and soul. He can't stop wanting to have wiped the tears from his face and taken him into his arms, traitor or not. He can't stop wanting, and this is always his weakness.]
He doesn't want to see me. Should I force him to? Is that what you're asking me to do?
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If he doesn't want to see you, then you have your answer.
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I guess you're right.
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You or him.
apologies for the late reply
I will.
Hey, I took a whole month off, you’re good!