[ harrow is desperate and lost; she'll follow anyone who grabs hold. thankfully ilarion got to her first, but most influences are whirring around in her head. ]
Everything.
Not black like mine, which we might have anticipated. Almost soulless, because I broke her, she forced my hand but I I struggle to -- I believe all the pieces aren't lined up right --
Everyone must understand she is the reason I live and there is very little of me able to hang on to what is left
I know. Kainé was that for me. When I lost her... I understand what losing someone like that does.
All I know is that it isn't her. Whoever Kiriona Gaia is, it isn't Gideon Nav. She said it herself. She told Midoriya that she's a construct. I don't know if that means that Gideon is still inside her, or if Gideon is still Here but somewhere else that we can't reach. Maybe she's in the River and John is just puppeting her body. I don't know.
It is her body and at least part of her soul but my guess is the soul is pinned and not fully integrated. Parts of it are also walled off. Parts of it I think are actually me. If I knew how to give her that part back
If I could get to the River I don't understand sometimes why we can't I would search endlessly, and I trust I would have you and Paul and Ilarion with me.
She shared hers with me. I tried to find a way to reciprocate the process, make it go in both directions -- we ran out of time and she and another [...] forced my hand.
But I would, if there were missing pieces that needed to be filled.
I didn't know it was like that. The girl living inside me is the same way, so I know what it's like almost literally. It's miserable. I'm sorry. We'll get her back for you.
Please, Harrow. You're fine. To be totally honest, I appreciate you not noticing, instead of thinking that you're treating me like a science experiment like someone else might be doing.
You wouldn't owe me anything. She's family to me, and so much more than that to you. I'm not giving up on a sister ever again.
Yeah. I guess it just takes people by surprise when I'm not, you know, part of the Nine Houses. My guess is that some people who shall remain Emperor aren't used to seeing my whole deal in a place that they don't already run.
I guess so. Well, my family's been weird for years, so it's just sticking with the trend.
(I do believe that the Necrolord Prime is aware other worlds may also hold the capacity for multiple souls in a body, and that he does not hold the monopoly. It is, however, possible that he forgot.)
[what anna wants to say is a bunch of bullshit that, if she's right, is something only one other person in the dominicus system should know about. what she does say is different.]
More than I should as an outsider, but not much that's useful. I know about the Nine Houses and about Dominicus, and as of this conversation I know about soulbonding stuff. And a few more things about the culture and religion and stuff that I've picked up from listening.
This might actually not be the best time to ask, but I have been meaning to ask you about souls and the River.
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What was wrong with her eyes?
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Everything.
Not black like mine, which we might have anticipated. Almost soulless
, because I broke her, she forced my hand but II struggle to -- I believe all the pieces aren't lined up right --Everyone must understand she is the reason I live and there is very little of me able to hang on to what is left
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Kainé was that for me. When I lost her...
I understand what losing someone like that does.
All I know is that it isn't her. Whoever Kiriona Gaia is, it isn't Gideon Nav.
She said it herself. She told Midoriya that she's a construct.
I don't know if that means that Gideon is still inside her, or if Gideon is still Here but somewhere else that we can't reach.
Maybe she's in the River and John is just puppeting her body.
I don't know.
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If I could get to the River
I don't understand sometimes why we can'tI would search endlessly, and I trust I would have you and Paul and Ilarion with me.no subject
You share your soul with her?
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But I would, if there were missing pieces that needed to be filled.
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The girl living inside me is the same way, so I know what it's like almost literally.
It's miserable. I'm sorry.
We'll get her back for you.
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I am so sorry to you both, I was not—paying close enough attention, I did not realize you had two souls to that body, I have been rude.
I would owe you everything.
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To be totally honest, I appreciate you not noticing, instead of thinking that you're treating me like a science experiment like someone else might be doing.
You wouldn't owe me anything.
She's family to me, and so much more than that to you.
I'm not giving up on a sister ever again.
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That must make you family to me, as well, in some complex way or another.
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I guess so. Well, my family's been weird for years, so it's just sticking with the trend.
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(I do believe that the Necrolord Prime is aware other worlds may also hold the capacity for multiple souls in a body, and that he does not hold the monopoly. It is, however, possible that he forgot.)
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More than I should as an outsider, but not much that's useful.
I know about the Nine Houses and about Dominicus, and as of this conversation I know about soulbonding stuff. And a few more things about the culture and religion and stuff that I've picked up from listening.
This might actually not be the best time to ask, but I have been meaning to ask you about souls and the River.