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[terriblepurpose]

House Atreides


Allies


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[terriblepurpose]

She would.

[Paul is firm. Kaworu may not know these things about humans, still, but Paul does. He knows what he would do, if he were ever really done with anyone. He'd excise them from himself like an infection.]

If.

Nothing you're afraid of has happened yet. It might never happen. The future isn't fixed, Kaworu. If there's anything you can believe me about, it's that.

[peripheries]

I hate this. I hate waiting. I hate feeling confused. I hate that she isn't here.

[terriblepurpose]

So do I.

I hate it so fucking much. This isn't - it's not easy for me, either. I don't want you to think that.

[peripheries]

I know.

I know you're hurting too.

You knew her before I did.

[terriblepurpose]

Not by very long. It doesn't matter, anyway, how long you've known someone. It matters how much they mean to you.

She was one of the first people who decided to be my friend. Like you.

I wanted to make her hot chocolate again, this winter. I'd been practicing.

[peripheries]

I know. I watched you. You were getting better.

I'm sure she would have liked it.

[terriblepurpose]

She will like it.

Are you going to be all right? For now, at least.

[peripheries]

My stomach hurts.

[terriblepurpose]

There's mint tea in the basket in the cupboard up and to the left of the stove.

I'm sorry I'm not there to make it for you.

[peripheries]

I want you to come home.

[terriblepurpose]

I will soon.

There's one thing left I have to do.

Be brave for me until then.

[peripheries]

I'm tired of being brave.

[terriblepurpose]

[A scratchy, wavering half-inhale. A pause.]

So am I.

[peripheries]

[Well, now he feels a little guilty.]

You don't always have to be. Even though you think you do.

[Suddenly. An intrusive thought.]

I haven't done a good job guarding you.

[terriblepurpose]

[Guilt isn't Paul's intent. When he presses the Omni to his brow to feel its fleeting coolness, all he's after is connection.

But that's the cost of being as overworn as he is. He isn't keeping himself tempered.]

This isn't your fault. What were you supposed to have done?

[peripheries]

Not burned.

Stayed close.

[Connection is all he wants too. And he feels guilt that they are not close right now. That they would have stayed close if his body had not failed him.]

[terriblepurpose]

Don't do that.

Don't take responsibility for things you couldn't help.

I don't know what to say when you talk like that, or what I'm supposed to do.

[peripheries]

I don't know either. I just wanted to say it.

[terriblepurpose]

...I know.

It's hard. I wish I knew how to make it easier without being there.

When I come home, I'm not letting you go for a week.

[peripheries]

What if I find you first?

[terriblepurpose]

Won't make a difference. Your fate is sealed.