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[terriblepurpose]

House Atreides


Allies


Shed? Heresy Hut


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[peripheries]

What if what she wants is for us to give up? What if that part of Gideon is gone?

[terriblepurpose]

Then we help her find it.

[peripheries]

How can you find something that doesn't want to be found?

[terriblepurpose]

I'm a good tracker.

[peripheries]

Don't be stupid! [A flash of pained anger before it subsides.]
She doesn't want us. She told me so.

[terriblepurpose]

And last week you told me we couldn't leave her behind.

People change their minds.

[peripheries]

...I don't know if it's her mind. I think it's her heart. More difficult to understand and to change.

[terriblepurpose]

No call we do not answer, no faith that we betray. The ring is gone. That isn't.

I won't stop waiting for her to come home. You can, if you want to, if that's easier, and I won't say a word to you about it, but I won't.

I never stop waiting.

[peripheries]

It's not easier! [The response is pained, choked enough to almost be a growl.] I just know how she feels. I know she thinks she's doing what she wants.

[A soft noise. Either a sigh or a sniffle.]

Would you wait if it was me?

[terriblepurpose]

I'd wait forever if it was you. I was ready to wait.

But you came back to us, and so will she. You wanted to stay when you were there, didn't you? And she brought you back when you wanted to return.

[He gentles his voice, threads his words with cradling atonals.]

...Teacher has a sword that can cut through bonds. If she wanted to, she could sever yours. But she hasn't.

[Even after what he did to both of them.]

If she meant everything she said, she'd do that, wouldn't she?

[peripheries]

I don't know.

[He really doesn't seem to know. He's never dealt with rejection like this. He's never been close enough to someone to actually be pushed away. Shinji always kept him at a distance.]

But if I can't bring her back... I failed her. I couldn't do for her what she did for me.

[terriblepurpose]

She would.

[Paul is firm. Kaworu may not know these things about humans, still, but Paul does. He knows what he would do, if he were ever really done with anyone. He'd excise them from himself like an infection.]

If.

Nothing you're afraid of has happened yet. It might never happen. The future isn't fixed, Kaworu. If there's anything you can believe me about, it's that.

[peripheries]

I hate this. I hate waiting. I hate feeling confused. I hate that she isn't here.

[terriblepurpose]

So do I.

I hate it so fucking much. This isn't - it's not easy for me, either. I don't want you to think that.

[peripheries]

I know.

I know you're hurting too.

You knew her before I did.

[terriblepurpose]

Not by very long. It doesn't matter, anyway, how long you've known someone. It matters how much they mean to you.

She was one of the first people who decided to be my friend. Like you.

I wanted to make her hot chocolate again, this winter. I'd been practicing.

[peripheries]

I know. I watched you. You were getting better.

I'm sure she would have liked it.

[terriblepurpose]

She will like it.

Are you going to be all right? For now, at least.

[peripheries]

My stomach hurts.

[terriblepurpose]

There's mint tea in the basket in the cupboard up and to the left of the stove.

I'm sorry I'm not there to make it for you.

[peripheries]

I want you to come home.

[terriblepurpose]

I will soon.

There's one thing left I have to do.

Be brave for me until then.

[peripheries]

I'm tired of being brave.

[terriblepurpose]

[A scratchy, wavering half-inhale. A pause.]

So am I.

[peripheries]

[Well, now he feels a little guilty.]

You don't always have to be. Even though you think you do.

[Suddenly. An intrusive thought.]

I haven't done a good job guarding you.